I’ll Never
It’s 11:01 p.m. on Wednesday here, and I just returned from a fun evening with my dear friend Kaitlan. Kaitlan is one-and-a-half life seasons behind me – I say this because she’s a recent college graduate, so she’s not so young as to be two life seasons behind me, but she’s not married yet, so she’s not a newlywed sans kids. So one-and-a-half suits her. Anyway, we had a great time chatting about boyfriends, husbands, different countries, etc., and I personally had fun being somewhere I never have a reason to be anymore – downtown. I miss it. And as I was driving home from downtown by myself at 10:30 in the evening – something I never do anymore either – it got me to thinking about what else I’ll never do again. At least in this little life I have going on right now (husband, baby, staying at home)…
- I’ll never go out with a girlfriend and not wonder every 15 minutes how my baby is doing
- I’ll never again have a really clean house
- I’ll never sleep in again, even on a Saturday… At least that’s how it feels
- I’ll never go an entire day without something disgusting getting on my shirt
- I’ll never say, “I’d never wear that two days in a row, it’s got something disgusting on it”
- I’ll never have a whole day at home just to dawdle without working around a nap schedule
- I’ll never assume that when I say to Kabob, “Sure, I’ll do that today,” I will 100% for sure get it done
- I’ll never take daily showers for granted
- I’ll never take only 10 minutes to be ready to leave the house
- I’ll never think it’s below me to put a baby’s butt up to my nose to check its status
- I’ll never be shocked when I see a mom in a store be completely deaf to their child screaming in the cart
- I’ll never climb into bed with my to-do list totally complete
- I’ll never climb into bed without relishing six or so hours of kid-free time near my husband (even if we are asleep)
I’ll never not understand how much love you can have for a completely selfish, dependent child who can also unconditionally love you back - I’ll never not appreciate my husband, imperfect as he is, for being such a loving dad and a well-suited companion to me
- And for all the times I wish I could just have one day to sleep in, or one afternoon to get things done, I’ll never not want exactly what God has given me now
posted: 05 December 14
under: family
Good list!
I must say that I agree with nearly all of it, and at one point have thought all of it, yet I bring good news: there will be a day of sleeping in and wearing clothes without food/spit-up, and it isn’t far away. Aaron and I are both able to sleep/stay in bed and rest on Saturdays now and the kids occupy themselves. I rarely have food on me, unless I do it myself. Can’t tell you it gets any easier to get things done, or to leave the house, or to not think about them every 15 minutes, or to dawdle…haven’t dawdled in years.
I like the one about the screaming baby in the cart as I can always tell who either doesn’t have children or isn’t around children EVER by the looks I get in public when my kid throws a fit. Yesterday it was Ash, and this guy just looked shocked, like he had never seen a kid cry before, and my first thought was “no kids”. Then there are the moms that whisper, “It’s okay. No one cares but you” or they nod their head in understanding and you know they’ve been there.