…because then I’ll have the camera doohickey I need to upload photos, which is currently in the car, and Kabob has been back and forth to the car in the freezing cold umpteen-jillion times, and I can’t bear to ask him to do so one more time, because we’re on the seventh floor and the car is on the third, and did I mention how totally cold it is?  So I’ll share about the fun we’ve had so far when I have the photos to document said fun.  I’m sure you’re already on the edge of your seat.

We left our program encouraged, kinda wanting to stick around for the next three-week conference that some of our new friends are attending.  But we’re thankful to have had a little vacation, and while we still have some a few days of “rest” left, we’re looking forward to our time at our next conference in Orlando.  We are not, however, looking forward to an average high of 85 and who-knows-what humidity, after enjoying three weeks of snowy mornings and air so dry I’ve used half my lotion supply.  Oh well.  It had to end sometime.

So instead of talking about what we’ve been up to for five days, I’ll share something I’ve been thinking about for five days.  And that is that I HATE goodbyes.  Absolutely cannot stand them.  I’d much rather pretend that I’ll see that person next week instead of probably never again this side of heaven.  The awkwardness, the little things we say to cushion the blow of impending separation, the wishing I had an appropriate feeling (streams of tears) instead of what I actually feel (I’m ready to get on the road), the frustration at myself for being sadder than I feel I’m supposed to be and ergo internally throwing myself a pity party…  It just stinks.  And of course, it really stinks that in our line of work, goodbyes are par for the course.  They happen all the time, and they’ll continue to happen all the time.  I’m really not looking forward to Januaryish, when I’ll be saying goodbye daily.

But I’ll need to approach all this maturely, in a God-honoring way.  I love the relationships He’s blessed me with, and I want to continue them in a way that gives Him glory (notice I said “continue them” and not “end them” – saying goodbye does not mean the relationship is over).  I haven’t really processed this yet, so I don’t have any conclusions…  Other than I really don’t like goodbyes.  Keep that in mind when the time comes for us to say that word.

So I’ll leave you with that…  Kinda depressing, no?  Sorry about that.  I really am doing well!  My brain and body are fried right now, so I’m thankful to be in a hotel room about to watch some movie on TBS that I’m sure I’ve been a thousand times…  And I know when we finally move in to a place of our own again, I will be very, very glad.  I need to remind myself regularly that this time in our life is just a season.

We fly out to Orlando in two days, and I probably won’t be on here again until after we’re there somewhere.  So until then, happy Halloween, happy first of November, and happy our anniversary!

posted: 06 October 31
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